26 April 2010 Y
Yesterday , bfore i went to bed , i look up into the stars & i was wondering whether am i happie with my life right now ? Do i have what i really wanted ? Someone once told me , treat Yourself better than anione else . Am i doing it right now ? Or im mistreating myself . I got no answer . Sometimes , i really wished that im back to my single life . Carefree , no worries . I dont know why i will have this mindset . Maybe im not yet well-prepared for a relationship . Maybe the reason behind is that i had been single for a period & i had already used to single life . Do things myself , spend my money myself , meet up with frens almost everyday . Asking me to change my life now seems kinda hard for me . Im still not used to the life right now . Im trying very best to force myself to get used of it . I really hope i can get through this as soon as possible . Because i dont wished to hurt anione nor myself . Im a grown up now , i guess i could handle things well enough .
I just hope You could understand me well enough & know what i really needs . Not everything i can speak out to You derh . I hope You can feel it with Your heart & knew what i wanted . I guess You should know my situation now & hope You will understand me & accomodate with me alright . & last of all , i lurfe You , Yes i do . ♥
Monday, April 26, 2010