25 February 2010 Y
This couple of days , knock off lerh jiu went down 32 find peeps . Reali had lots of fun at there whenever they are around . They never fails to make me smile . But afterall i knew i couldnt laugh lyke how i used to be . Today saw a mother trying to make her daughter smile & stop throwing tantrum . When i saw that scene , somehow my heart feels that sour & my heart is aching . Tears start to drip to my cheek . Somehow , in my whole entire lyfe , what im lacking of is just the lurfe of my mother . The feeling is damn fcuk up derh . But i control my emotions & try to be back to myself . Im just trying to convince myself & face the fact dhat i could nvr had this kind lurfe fer the rest of my lyfe .
Through tyme passes , i admit i miss him still . But not as much as before maybe because i know missing him is just hurting myself & maybe others . I cant deny the fact dhat the lurfe fer You never goes away . I gonna put everything that concern about You down . The gentle touch of yours on my face that day , i will nvr forget . Its a past tense lerh . I must be happie fer my present tense & prepare myself for my future tense . Im gonna walk out the first step on the right direction . I dont know whether i can do so but i will try . Walk out of the world of yours & walk back into mine . I will stop thinking of You & buried the lurfe i had for You . Boy , after such a long journey , finally i letting go of You & letting off myself . I know You wouldnt bother nor care because You doesnt even knows how i feel for You . Its destined i believe & i resign to fate . We wasnt meant to be . So im not gonna force it to be in my way . Jiayous Rinnie (:
Im Sorry , i know i have been hurting You all along . But i doesnt means anithing . I know You're giving in to me always . I need tyme to heal myself & i know You will always be here for me . Even if You wasnt here , i can understand why . I dont wanna make use of You to replace him nor mend my heart . That is why i always didnt give You a definite answer . I dont expect that You will wait for me & i hope You wont too . Because it's just wasting the precious tyme of Yours . Afterall , all i need is tyme . I cant promise that i could be the cause of Your smile but if i could be the cause in ani ways , i will do so (: Thanks for being the one with me whenever im down . Please be as happie as possible , because Your frowning looks so ugly ! Laugh out loud ! ;x
Okie , tyme to sleep lerh . Nights peeps (:
Thursday, February 25, 2010
22 February 2010 Y
After a long holidays , im back to work again (: Glad to see all my lovely customers as they keep ask me where did i go fer this entire week . Nearly forget how to work already ;x Only remember those fun & joy i had for the past entire week . Hahah! Starts to miss the joy & fun lerh T_T
Knock off lerh , meet Ling at TPY then went down 32 with him . Told him what happen today in shop & i was laughing lyke hell . Reach 32 & saw all my friends sitting at there , playing around . 1st person i saw at there is CHIA GONG ONG ! He was running around lyke a mad dog ! LOLOLOLS ! Reach there , help LongLong buy some stuff & it was lyke so exggerate lorh . Buy some stuff , need so many people to tag along with me . They crazy derh lehs . Hahaha! Guess they miss me too much . HAHAHAH! Bhb ? I know ! Lmao ;x After dhat , we went for our dinner then Raymond & Seng came . Chat about so much stuff while eating . After dinner , went back to 32 . Continue chatting & talking about our past lyfe . Talk about alot of stuff . Im laughing lyke hell whenever Chia Gong Ong speaks . Buey tahan with the way he talk sial . He , himself is the joke itself . Hahaha! After dhat Gong Ong went home lerh then we went upstair & i saw the rest of the people playing mahjong & here i goes , my mahjong spree come lerh . I snatch-ed Jason's place & Ling snatch-ed Terry's place . They so pathetic sial . Hahaha! Feeling damn tired while im playing . Cabb-ed home with Ling after mahjong . Keep push $$ to me , make me so angry . Zzz ! I know You're a gentlemen but i say i pay lerh marh . Idiot leh ni !
Im Sorry , due to my tiredness , i show some of my bad tempers on You . Dont reali mean to do so but i just cant control it . Will try to handle my temper well next tyme. Or maybe dont even have a next tyme . Not reali angry at You but maybe angry about myself barh . Maybe im not brave enough , i dont dare to give anithing out . Once after once , im getting more & more fragile . I reali cant take it animore . It's so hard to get myself up after each incident i had . Thinking back to the past , somehow the fear is there . My tears will evetually drip whenever the past flash back into my mind . I dont know what i should do now but somehow , i will get everything right on path after i had straighten out my thoughts . I do hope if i cant be the one giving You the happiness , there will be someone that could gives it to you . Night peeps (:
Monday, February 22, 2010
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Im back from my trip , XD ! Thanks to all my lovely friends (: They created so much laughter & fun in my lyfe fer this entire week . We shop , we play , we went to so many unfamiliar places . We joke wherever we goes , we play whenever we could . Bought lots of stuffs but with little photos T_T I lurfe all the nights we had bfore our sleeps ! Havoc ! We sleep together , we stay together , we shop together , we play together , we tease each other & we laugh at each other . Smiles on our faces never fails to be shown each day . There's so much stuff that i wanna update but im so exhausted already so gonna update maybe tmr or the day after tmr (: Thanks to Chia Gong Ong , Jiao Wei Ong , Ling , Hao , Raymond , Ho Lang Fatt , Niao Chi Niao Lan , etc . Lyfe brighten up so much bcos of you all . Im gonna cherish every moment i had with You all . Especially Ling , someone that is very impt to me that i couldnt lose . No matter what happens , we'll gonna stay together forever . I know what the situation is now & i will think about it (: I could feel it with my heart & i know what exactly it is . But im just afraid . Whatever it is , i lurfe all of them ! 123 , HUAT ARH !
Monday, February 22, 2010
12 February 2010 Y
Today at shop , something funny happens . Make me & Boss laugh until dont know like what sial . Bth ! Tmr i gonna disturb that guy again . Hahaha! Ke ai lehs . Lmao ;x So funny sial . Till now , think about it , very funny still . Then YX come over my shop & follow by Robin . They two reali very funny also , Keep make me laugh . Knock off lerh , YX accompanies me go home then i wash my clothes & he help me hang it up as im too short to do so . Around 7 plus , went down 32 with him . Reached there , saw so mani people at there as usual . They at there training , i at there play my Tapulous ♥ Damn fun man ! My itouch just couldnt get off my hand . Lmao ;x Even the kids wanna snatch from me to play Tapulous T_T LOLOLOLS ! After training , xiao dee suddenly came to 32 , he follow us to Amk to collect some stuff . On the way there , he asked me why my face so cramp . Lols . I also dont know why he will say so . He created some fun & laughters while on the way to Amk . Reached there , collect the stuff lerh then LongLong suddenly say he drive me home . I was like , oh okie . Hahaha! Reaches house downstair , bid goodbye to everyone & headed home .
Nothing much happens today . Just some stuff that makes me feels so terrible . Forget it . Off to bed lerh . Night Peeps .
Friday, February 12, 2010
11 February 2010 Y
Short summary on what i had did yst & today .
Yesterday was at home for the whole day . Intend to go down 32 & Jason keep bomb my phone , asking me to go down . Get so pissed off by my itouch bcos im so new to it . Busy handling with my itouch so didnt went down . Korkor came back home & he uses only 5 mins & get everything right on the path . Zzz ! This can shows how stupid i am to electronic device . Then bfore im off to bed , chatt-ed on the phone with Ling . After dhat off to bed lerh . Had a nightmare while im sleeping & i woke up , im damn afraid . Look at the clock & its nearly 5am . My mind just cant stop thinking about the nightmare i had & i cant get back to sleep . I got no one to turn to at that moment & i just felt so helpless . That is when i reali feels im just alone & that lonely . Tears started dripping & i just wipe it off & tried to get back to sleep . Suddenly heard my brother coughing sound & it reali peace out my mind . I felt so relieved bcos i knew someone is around . Finally , i can peacefully get back to sleep .
Today , after work went to TPY to buy my itouch protection cover . Today i did everything all by myself . I went to buy the protection cover myself , i took bus alone to 32 . I guess i want back my lonely lyfe lerh barh . Lonliness is frightening but what frighten me the most is when i have a lot of people around me but i still felt that im just alone . The feeling sarky TTM . Whatever it is , lyfe goes on still . Alone or not alone , i just have to lead on no matter what .
My mind never fails to think about You . Just that i dont wanna admit this is the fact . Im running away , i knew it . Im afraid of silent . Silent Night kills me . No one knows how it feels . Im just terribly stuck here . Get me out of this shyt . I dont wanna lurfe animore . Im so afraid of it . Denying everything just make me realise how much i wanted You . But i knew i cant . Bcos im so sarky at lurfe . I will make everything into a nothing .
Hope Nightmare wont come again today . Off to bed lerh , Nights Peeps (:
Thursday, February 11, 2010
08 February 2010 Y
Briefly update what i have done fer this weekends .
Saturday
Ling came over my shop look fer me . After dhat accompanies me go home & prepare myself while YX went back home to bath & change . Around 8 plus dhen we went down to 32 . Saw all the people & Jason there . Omt ~ 2 years has passes so fast . I saw him , i jirao stunned . Bcos he become SO FAT ! From a skeleton become a fishball . His face so chubby sial . Omg ! Im so shock to see him in this way . So happie that he's here with us now . Hope he wont walk back his old path . Hope he reali learn his leasson . He changes so change . Not only his feature changed , even his character also changed . No longer as bad temper as before . Good for him & for all those kids . LOLOLOLOLS ! Me , Ling & YX went for our dinner & when we came back they starts their training session . Congrats that they had learn their new pattern . So happie for them (: After training , LongLong send Jason & some of them back home so we followed them as well . Came back to 32 & suddenly i feels lyke playing mahjong so ask them whether they wanna play anot . Just nice 4 people , so we chatted for a while at downstair then we went up to start our MAHJONG SESSION ! Actually Max is playing with us derh but then Bao reached lerh so he take over Max . Play for 2 rounds till morning 7+ . Shag dao x.x ! Didnt lose alot , just a few bucks . Afterall , have a nice game with them . Hope every Saturday is our Mahjong Session ! This tyme round , not gonna be so mercy . Gonna win off all of them derh $$ . Hahaha! Cabb-ed home after that . Reaches home , off to bed straight away .
Sunday
Im sleeping for the whole day . Around 9 in the morning reached home then sleep till Monday Morning 8.25 , wake up then off to work . Too tired . So slept fer the whole day . Exactly 23 hours . So many people bomb my phone on Sunday . Gets 56 miss calls & 18 messages . 1 message is from Him . So surprise to see his number appears in my phone . Can see , im still not forgotten by him after so long . So rare i could receive his message (: That's all for Sunday bcos im sleeping whole day so nothing much to update .
Monday
Today Bin came over my shop as usual then follow by SY . Knock off lerh then went over TPY Shopping again ! Bought 1 clothes & some New Year decoration stuffs fer my shop . After that head down to 32 . They starts their training again & Bishan Boy they all came down too . Saw some scene which makes me damn angry . But i remain silent , i just keep to myself & dont wished to comment much . I train with them too & i FINALLY know how to LJF lerh ! Yeah ! Claps fer Rinn ~ 1st attempt i passed & im damn happie ! Wished to train with them again if there's chance to do so . After that cabb-ed home . Gonna sleep soon .
Suddenly feels im not lonely animore . I got my lovely friends around me . They created laughters & jokes around me . They nvr fails to make me smile & laugh lyke nobody business . New chapters of life & im very satisfied with it . I may be single , may be alone sometimes but i know as long as i have them by my side , i will never be 1 person . Thanks peeps around me , lyke Ling , Jason , Bao & those kids . I will nvr smile so happily if there wasnt ani of You around . I will remember every moments i spent with You guys & it shall be a comma & not a fullstop (: Thanks Ling for TAGGING AFTER SO LONG ! Everytime gek siao view lerh then run off . Didnt even TAG ! Hahaha! ♥ For relationship stuff , leave it to fate barh . I will meets 1 eventually i believe . Nights Peeps ! Lots of Lurfes ♥
Monday, February 08, 2010
06 February 2010 Y
Yawns ~ Currently in my shop , damn sians . Laugh out loud ! Yst , Ling get caught in the rain to come my shop norh . My deepest apologise to You . I didnt expect You will come to my shop when its raining so heavily . Quite stunned to see a whole body wet derh You . Felt kinda guilty worh . But afterall , You're nice (: I guess in my previous lyfe , i accumulate too much good deeds , in this lyfe god gave me such a nice friend . Thanks god (: After dhat went home & prepare myself . Thought could meet Jason after such a long waiting . Eventually all i get is disappointment . Sigh* After dhat wait for YX to come over my place dhen we cabb-ed down to 44 . Went to get myself a cup of Bubble Tea as usual . Bought 1 fer YX & shared mine with Ling because i cant finish it up on my own . Then went fer our dinner at 4o . Omt ~ The pig organ soup still tastes as nice as bfore . The worker is still so attitude lyke in the past . Laugh out loud ! Saw Chris when we were on the way there . Haha! He went to 44 first then come & look for us at 4o . Had a nice & lame chat . Briefly explain what is a Cat's Play . Hahaha! Told him what had happen recently because he's curious about it . After dhat went to catch Bearbear again . Spent $2o+ on it but couldnt get it still . Auntie Jojo gave me her Winnie The Pooh , i guess is because she see me catch until very frustrated lerh . Haha! Gonna add the Winnie The Pooh into my collection (: Went for our singing session once again . Have a havoc singing night once more . ♥ our singing session so much (: After singing , have a puff outside then cabb-ed home . & off to bed once i reached home .
Heard dhat Jason today coming down 32 ! Yeah ! Gonna get home after work & prepare myself asap ! Woots ~ Lingu Lingu , Faster wakie wakie ~ Hope tonight will be an enjoyable night (: Shall blog again later !
Saturday, February 06, 2010
05 February 2010 Y
Yst , rot home day at home so didnt intend to blog about anithing . Just went fer a 1h jog & came home , sweat all over & panting lyke a dog x.x !
Today YX suddenly pops out in my shop , accompanies me fer dinner & shopping . Bought a few clothes again . Bought my Fried Potato Twist ! So nice lehs . Lmao ;x After dhat head-ed home . Came home , on my com & starts to audi . Play-ed with lsb , kanna own by him as usual . Lols ! After dhat he jio me plae L4D then here we came to Garena . 2 newbie in here & trying to get ourself in the same room . Keep call Korkor to seek fer help . Because i reali knows nothing about Garena . Lols ! Korkor Came home & he starts to teach me & lsb how to get into the same room . Me & Korkor keep laugh in my room sial . Damn funny . Bth x.x ! Eventually cant get in still . Tried through Steam & Garena . Haha! But end-ed up chatting at Garena Lobby . Lyke the lobby belongs to both of us nia . Lyke MSN sial . Hahaha! Promise Ling , gonna install Dota & learn it from him dhen accompanies him play next tyme (: I will Jiayous derh ! Gonna sleep soon . & Nights Peeps ! Tomorrow ish the Day ! (:
Friday, February 05, 2010
03 February 2010 Y
Shag day again x.x Just now when working , Bin came over my shop & accompanies me again . After dhat wait fer me knock off dhen we go dinner together . Today suddenly very moody . Ish damn moody derh lorh x.x ! Get my New Year bonus today . Quite a big sum of it . Still thinking what should i buy . But still , im moody . Sorry Lingu . Break promise again . Emotions just hard to control . I dont want it that way but keeps on coming the way dhat i doesnt wants to .
Told Ling last night dhat i had a dream . Finally i got a dream of my own . I wished to open a cafe call Honey Hut . Every accessories will be using winnie the pooh to decorate & just full of Pooh's . Food will be using honey to make it . I do hope i could do so . Saving up money bfore age of 26 i gonna open my own shop ! Hope my dream do come true . Jiayous ! Gonna sleep soon , Night Peeps (:
Wednesday, February 03, 2010
01 February 2010 Y
Just reached home nort long ago . Went to meet Ling because he wanna buy some stuff so ask me along . Actually wanna go shop fer some new clothes but in the end , i guess we shop more on foodie than on accessories barh . Haha! Eat until so full sial . Bth ! Have a nice chat with Ling just now . Manage to get a dress & Ling just comment it as so-so -.- ! What The Hell T_T Lols ! But i find it quite nice lehs . Lmao ;x After dhat , Ling insisnt on sending me home & i let him do so bcos he very STUBBORN ! Lmao ;x Thanks Ling fer the ride home (:
Nothing special happens today . Actually intend to go fer a jog today but eventually didnt get to do so bcos meet Ling just now . Now helping my brother deal with dhat idiot phone . Headache -.- ! Eat too full lerh , cant reali digest so gonna wait fer a while more dhen can off to bed . Daru Lingu Ichiban Daisu (:
Today 53947 suddenly pm me in MSN . Ask me to give some advice whether which fishing rod he should buy . Lucky i have no feelings on anithing now so it doesnt affects me that much . Just gave him my advice & stop replying him Bcos i noe if i continue talking to him , i will feels damn moody & the feeling will be back . So i stop myself just in tyme . Sorry . I got no choice but to be in this way . I just dont wan to hurt myself animore . Please understands this .
Waiting fer Ling to online but i guess he cant online lerh bcos its's late . He need to go school tmr . I gonna off to bed soon too . Damn tired . Nights Peeps (:
Monday, February 01, 2010
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Lalas ~ So many days nvr blog lerh ! Got no tyme to blog as this few days im outside & reaches home in the late night so didnt get to blog . Too tired after having fun outside . Short summary fer what i have did fer this couples of days .
Friday
Its Lunar 15th , the day me & Ling gonna be a vegetarian & i didnt get to eat anithing in the morning bcos got nothing im able to eat . Same goes to Ling . He only get to eat bread . Haha! Then around late noon , Ling came over to my shop wait fer me to knock off as usual . Then went to my house bcos i nid to bathe , make up & stuff . After dhat went fer our shopping & bought a new Winnie The Pooh bedsheet . ♥ it so much (: After dhat Max called Ling & says he got some problem at 44 . So we stop our shopping & cabb-ed to 44 & help him settle it . After settling the problem , Raymond they all came & we went fer our singing session . More & more people joining our singing session lerh . Having even more fun & more havoc . Lols ! Have alot of fun singing with them . Hope we could have more of this kind of outing more often . After singing , me & Ling finally can get to have our meat meals . Rushed to 4o & order alot of meaty . When food is served to us , we eat lyke hungry ghost just release . Haha! Bth . Told Raymond they all , we gonna have a Sentosa outing next Sunday . They agreed with it & im very excited about it ! Lols ! Awaiting fer Sunday to arrived soon ~ After supper , cabb-ed home with Ling & off to bed .
Saturday
Here it goes , its Saturday ! In the morning , YX suddenly pops out in my shop & im very stunned about it . Bcos i tried to contact him but his fone get stolen so i couldnt find him . Then , YX accompanie me till i knock off then went to my house & prepared myself fer my Saturday night (: Some things happens & i cried . It caused my day so fcuked up . Just some family matters & i feels dhat i have a fcuk up family . Just hope my brother would get his karma soon . I will curse him everyday (: After preparing myself , went to TPY central to meet Ling dhen we went down 32 tgt . Can see dhat YX & Ling quite worried about me bcos i kept silent fer a long period of tyme . Im sorry & i promise no next tyme (: Thanks fer the care & concern . Lurfes ♥ Went 32 & saw alot of people already done with their changing so i went to changed too . Mood getting back to normal & i starts to talk to everyone around . After everything , back to 32 & everyone left . Just onli left some of us around . Then Bryan came down 32 . He comes down & everyone came back to 32 & we talk , play , crack jokes & making fun of everyone . So funny sial . After dhat me , Bryan , Ling & Hao went 34 fer our supper . Omt ! Our supper is so exaggerate . We ordered so much foodies which we knew we couldnt finish it up . LOLS ! Bryan ordered beer & we drink it but i cant finish it up so Ling help me finish it . Thanks Ling ♥ Saw those kids passed by so we called them & here we goes , 1 big group of people eating at there . After supper , all went over 44 . Ling & Bryan wanna play billard but the shop closing soon so didnt get to play it . So decided to get back to 32 & have our mahjong session . In the end , i ended up sleeping at there bcos too tired lerh . & so good night fer that day (:
Sunday
Suddenly woke up , also dont know whye . Then Ling sitting beside me , dhen heard from him dhat they still got their mahjong session Yst . Too bad i fall asleep . You all lucky uh ! If i nvr sleep , i guess i will be the onli winner . Win off all the money You all have . HAHAHA! Next tyme will be my turn ~ After a while , Long call Bao so we went over his house & help him move his stuff as he's moving house . I guess fer the whole day , we have been up & down his house fer 8oo+ tymes lerh barh . So mani stuffs to move down lehs . Although tired but have alot of fun . Laughters all around . Got me , Ling , Bao , Wee , HuaZhi , HuaZhi's fren , HuiHui & Terry . We keep from 29 then to 32 , from 32 to 29 again . Fer thousands of tymes . Damn shag x.x Lucky is Long drive us derh if nort we gonna be damn shag ! Went to Long house & took what we wanted & all of us took ALOT ! We lyke Garang Guni sial . I took all those thai god & GuanYin home bcos im so enthu in those stuffs . But among all I LURFE MY CRYSTAL COFFIN THE MOST ♥ Omt ! So beautiful . HAHAHAH! Sorry Ling , You're too late . Just 1 step later than me . Lmao ;x After moving house , have our dinner at Long's house dhen went back 32 , unpack all stuff dhen me & Ling cabb-ed home .
Have lots of fun fer this 3 days & there's nothing sad cross over my mind except my family stuff . I reali starts to lurfe my lyfe even more . I lurfe this feeling (: No one is in my mind & i can enjoy my day so much everyday . I hope this could continues & my lyfe will be wonderful . Thanks fer friends around me . They created so much laughter & brought colours to my lyfe again . Im blessed to have Them ♥ Especially Ling . Your care & concern nvr fails to be shown to me everyday . Have a friend lyke You , i guess it's so wonderful . this lyke of friend aka Lingu is no one can ever replaced derh .
Tyme fer bed now & im going have my bathe & then off to my bed (: Nights peeps ♥
Monday, February 01, 2010
All you need to know
