28 January 2010 Y
Eyes closing up soon x.x ! Just finished my games with Lsb . Kanna own by him , bth ~ But i got own him 8k also ! Haha! Feels so shiok ! Now on fone with Ling (: You hurr ! What is awkward ? Kao ni ! Arbish* No more next tyme hurr !
Today , suddenly got a feeling of playing again . Woah . God lyke x.x Keep think about the past i played with it . Omg ! I dont wanna think lehs . But dhen , this stuffs keep spinning in my mind . I just cant shake it off . Help me please someone ~ Today saw that rdm guy that tyme come my shop ask me takkaire of my throat derh . Woah , he wear until damn handsome can ! I know his name lerh . He call Nicholas Koh ! Just now i went in Facebook keep search fer him . FINALLY ! Through my hardwork , i found him ! Hesitate fer a while dhen decided to add him derh . Lmao ;x So random . Now on fone , Ling playing the guitar while im singing fer him . Damn no mo qi lorh . Lmao ;x Shag die lerh . See so many couples around in the bus . Damn envious . I admit i feels a little sour in my heart . But no choice marh . Im just single . I cant help it too . Sigh* Trying to get used to this kind of scene . It's beyond my control somehow . Just freaking hell , clear my mind & live peacefully barh . If can , please stab me to death , it will be even faster & easier fer me .
After 12 midnight , i canot eat meaty stuff lerh ): Gonna fulfil my promise dhat i gonna be veteran on the Lunar 1st & 15th . I do hope , god will feels my sincerity & heard me . I will do as many good deed as possible . Bless all people around me , to have their own happiness & have what they wanted . Gonna off to bed soon . Nights Peeps (: Ling , YX ! Tmr no meaty stuff fer ue both too . Bcos we make a deal bfore . We gonna be veteran on 1st & 15th . Jiayous us ! Tmr is the 1st try . Buhbye!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
27 January 2010 Y
Yawns ~ Watch HPTX Epi 13 in shop today . Cried while watching the show . Damn touching . Today Robin came over my shop , complaints about his work stuff again . Gave him as many advice as i could . Bcos i dont reali know what his job is all about . hope he could solve this big problem asap . Amen + Lmao ;x
Yst arh , Ling accompanies me talk on the phone . Damn havoc sial . He played the guitar , i was lyke so impress of it ! So nice lehs . Now looking fer guys who knows how to play guitar . Damn attractive lehs . The sweet melodies melts my heart okie . Have a nice chat with him yst . Planning fer our Saturday Night . Had a well planning already , hope will progress smoothly .
Told Ling yst on the phone , why everyone can happily find their partner Yet i cant . Was wondering whether the problem is on me . I knew in the past , there's a few r/s is i missed it or maybe i didnt cherish it well enough . But now , when im ready to get into a r/s to settle down myself , its so hard . Everyday hoping , there will be a Right One appearing right infront of me . But everyday is just a false hope . Isnt it hard to have someone You lurfe & he lurfes You too ? W/o a BoyF , i wont die . But then , when You sees cpl all around , You will be asking yourself , is this reali so ? I reali feels im okie w/o a BoyF . But then , under some circumstances , i will be asking myself , am i abit too lonely ? Im just trying to back off from everyone . But when im alone , im afraid . Im afraid i will be forgotten by everyone . Everyone wont even know that i do exist . This feeling sarky TTM . There's a lot of tymes , im the one who screw up everything . It can turns out a better way . But i choose not to . I run away , i hide , i just cant face it . ILurfeYou , yes i do . But why am i running away ? There's lot of nice guys dhat i missed out . Happie moments with them , just lasted that short & i got no tyme to confess everything & everything just seems too late . Same goes to 53947 . I missed it in the past & now im here regretting , blaming myself . I dont wished to be that weak but i cant help it . I told myself , if there's one coming , i will nvr miss it out again . Bless dhat i could see one coming soon & i will nvr be the way i am . I wont be as timid as now . I will lurfe him bravely . People ask me , Rinn you got anyone in mind now ? Frankly speaking , No . I've just clear him out of my mind & not wanting him back anymore . Im just myself now .
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
26 January 2010 Y
Dying due to shagness x.x ! Today morning , reaches shop dhen went fer my breakfast . Suddenly 1 msg received & its from Robin . Haha! Complaints about his work etc . He says he's hoping to get to drink my Oreo Choco . Suddenly felt he changes alot eh . I dont know whye i will feels so . Just have this feeling . Replied him & ask him to get to my shop when he's done with his stuff . Provided dhat he got the tyme to do so . But he didnt came today eventually & i knows he doesnt have the tyme bcos he's down with his stuff . Thanks Ling fer the morning call today if nort im not gonna reached shop on time again . Bcos yst online till quite late .
Waiting fer weekends to arrived soon ~ Gonna enjoy my weekends with peeps (: Not going think about anithing animore . Live as what its meant to be . Not trying to change anithing fer now . Bcos my energy has used up . Im tired , berri tired . Mentally tired & im dying inside . Dying day by day . Slowly , im just a shyt to everything . im a fcuk up person till dhat tyme reaches . Pardon me fer being so . i dont wished to but i have to . So this is my lyfe afterall -.- ! -'-
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
25 January 2010 Y
Today's business so good . Damn lot of customer . Busy until i forget every little thing in my mind . I hope everyday's business will be lyke today . Then i can not bother about anithing in my mind . Wont be wondering about this & that . I guess this will be better fer me barh . Today just realise there's a guy whu onli comes on Monday & ordered the same drink everytyme . Notice him fer quite a long time lerh bcos he got 1 angmoh pai derh face . Lols ! Just now , Robin came over to my shop . He sms-ed me bfore he reached . He ask me to wait fer him bfore i leave . Haha! Come to my shop & here he goes with his complaints at work . Can see he reali berri chiong at his work lerh . Although he always seems to be lyke ban toh lerh . But i can see he reali working very hard on his job now . & same goes to me . Im working very hard lerh . Maybe this is the way how i gonna forget about everything & clear everything in my mind . Today saw those graduated students , coming back to my shop & they bought drinks from me . They came with their new uniform & says they misses my drink . So sweet of them (: Bcos nearby their new school , there're bubbletea shop too . But they came down specially just to buy it from me . So touched & appreciated . They says : JieJie , miss your drink so much lehs . I straight away reply , i thought you all miss me . LOLS ! Knock off lerh , waiting fer my bus at the bus stop dhen saw 1 of my poly customer . Waiting at the bus stop & we started chatting . Bus came & we sitted tgt & continues our chat . Chat until i alight . Haha! He still know where i alight sial . So funny eh . Then , reached home now , just had my dinner & waiting fer HPTX Epi 13 to upload into Funshion dhen i go download . Blog again later , provided i have the tyme . Nothing special happens today . Just a normal day passes . & fcuk days passing so slow -'-
Monday, January 25, 2010
24 January 2010 Y
Just woke up x.x ! Slept fer 16h today . Haha! But still berri tired lehs . Maybe going back to sleep later norh . Yst arh , YX & Ling came down my shop & look fer me . After dhat accompanies me back home , to bathe & changed . After dhat cabb-ed to 32 . Yst , suddenly felt dhat the kids are so havoc lehs . All plae & fool ard . We luff , we jokes , we plae . They looks so different . They so enthu in training . So long nvr sees this kind of scene lerh . Then Ling keep dance the DaLang dance . Woah lao , bth lehs . I keep luff & luff lehs .Yst , SY is full of laughters & everyone seems to be enjoying themself so much . After dhat Jack came down . So long nvr see him lerh , as we're all working & got no tyme to meet up . Chatted until training ends dhen me & Larry went fer our supper while the kids went 44 . Have a nice supper at 4o dhen went over 44 to look fer the kids . Talking about the past 44 with the kids . Shared the past with them . After dhat cabb-ed home with Ling .
Yst , i decided to let go of a guy whu i waited fer months . I've been yearning fer him . But eventually , after one incident i felt lurfe just seems so fake . I know letting him go is hard but i wants to . Im tired of waiting & just waiting . Maybe i should just let go of You & get new lyfe of mine . I've nvr stand out of it & look into the world . I guess its tyme i shld do so . Bcos of You , i cried . Bcos of You , i smile . Bcos of You , i lurfe . Bcos of You , i tried . & its bcos of You , im letting go . i dreamt of You when im sleeping & when i woke up i saw tears on my cheek . & i know i must not be in this way animore. I will rmb all the memories & i will still talk about the past of You & Me w/o crying . Thanks fer creating such a memories in my lyfe . You're the fav part of my lyfe . & just bcos You're the fav part , im gonna buried it deep down my heart & walk out of it . Jiayous Rinnie (:
Today arh , got 1oo plus miss call x.x ! 99 from Ling . 16 from LongLong . So exaggerate lehs . I see liao , stunned . Hahaha! Qh say he wanna jio me back . Omg x.x He says he gonna slowly & steadily use his heart jio me back . Woah . Stunt lehs . He treats me berri good i can say but just dhat the feel is not there norh . & i believes all guys are baddies . So im so confused now . No lurfe lurfe stuff fer me now . Gonna have a early night today . (:
Sunday, January 24, 2010
23 January 2010 Y
Yawns x.x Now currently in my shop . Weather so hot & here it goes , damn lots of customers . So tired lehs . Yesterdae reached home at 3 plus -.- Went to have dinner with Ling , Calli & SY . Have a wonderful dinner at Lv . After dhat went singing again . Must stop my singing sessions fer now lerh . 1 week sing one tyme , my voice will reali gone somedays . After singing , saw Raymond they all dhen we sitted down & talk . Throughout the chattings , laughter is all ard . Kanna lame topic & caused us to laugh lyke a dog . Haha! Have a chat with Calli outside about Erica's stuff . Dont reali wished to give Erica advice anymore . I dont see the point . If 1 day she get to lose both of them , just dont regret . She did it this way & she should accept the consequences herself .
Yst when singing dhat tyme , felt kinda emotional . Wanna cry but i tolerate bcos i dont wish to shed a tear anymore . Suddenly Ling became so quiet & down . Ask him what happen , he replied nothing . Hope there's nothing happening to him . Saw his mushroom head yst . I saw it & i just cant stop my laughing . Very cute & funny . This hairstyle suits him so much lehs . LOLOLOLOLS! Everyone saw his hairstyle , please kindly give him some face , dont laugh at him . He cut this hairstyle just fer a exchange of my smile . Whoever luffs at him , i will kill dem ! Exclude myself . Lmao ;x Nowadays , emotional changes so fast & randomly . Hope could settle down my mood asap . Dont wished to be in this way animore . Just wished to be back to my oldself . Laugh lyke nobody business , fool ard lyke im mad . Yst , while waiting fer Calli to reached , i went shopping ;x Buy 1 mini jacket , 1 tube dress & 1 polo . Lyke it so much ! Cost me so much x.x ! Once again , i want the Lolita watch !!!! Haha! I shall get back to work now . Blog again tonight (: Saturday night is my Havoc Night !!
Saturday, January 23, 2010
21 January 2010 Y
Its end of today again . Nothing much happens today . Get to saw 1 incident today outside my shop . A small kid keep bugging his grandmother to get him a ChaShaoBao . He keep , wo yao ChaShaoBao narh . wo yao wo yao ! Keep throwing his tantrum & his grandmother seems to ignores him & carry on chatting with her frens . But till the berri end , his grandmother gives up , she said : Hao narh hao narh . Go buy ChaShaoBao narh . Suddenly i feels , being a small kid is better dan a grown up . Being a kid , You just nid to throw your tantrum , you will eventually gets what you wanted . But being a grown up , it wasnt as easy as this . You gonna work berri hard just to get something you wanted & not by throwing tantrum you will get what you wants . That's lyfe barh i guess . Lyke i told kill , i reali leave everything to the god to decides . I wont have any complaints animore . Bcos everything is already destined ever since im born . So just lead the way it is barh .
Saw a Lolita watch on Teenage today . omq ! So damn nice lehs . Valentine's day coming lerh ~ Will it be the present i received ? HAHAHAHHA! Thinking back , i guess i have been single fer Valentine's Day fer years lerh . This year i guess it wont make ani difference too . It wont makes me feels im lonely bcos im not keen to have a partner to celebrate it too . I guess lyfe fer me is just so . Nothing gonna make ani difference to my lyfe & i dont bother about it too . Just hopefully bless i can die earlier . Get a better lyfe in my next lyfe . Gonna be vegetarian on the 1st & 15th . Hope this could bless people ard me to have their happiness & in a pink health . I hope it do touched the god & he could see my sincerity & do me this little favour (: Hear my blessing & i hope it do come true . Late lerh , gonna have a early sleep bcos tmr i gonna open shop myself . Nights peeps ! The feelings is different but i know something in common . We're watching the same stars in the same sky .
Thursday, January 21, 2010
20 January 2010 Y
Here comes the mood again x.x ! God damn it . Trying to make full used of my tyme , playing audi , blogging . Somehow it just dont helps . Lazy to go out also . Just wanna rot at home. Doesnt wished to go aniwhere , any places . Just wished to drift away from everyone i guess . Second outlet opening soon . Finding location currently . Any good location please let me noe , Thanks (: Gonna chiong my work lerh ! $$ is my top priority in my heart now ! I wanna fulfil my dreams ! I gonna get a new phone (: From overseas . Nokia N9oo ! Not yet lodge in Singapore ! 1st Computerize phone . Woots ! Kill got lerh lehs . Make me so envious . I must get it too ! Lalalalas ~ Getting my own lyfe right now & i guess i can do so . Thanks fer the support my frens gave . All guys , please drift far away from me . I dont need ani guys to make me alive . Inside me , part of it is died lerh . The other part is living fer all my beloves frens . I cant disappoint them nor upset them & make them worry fer me anymore . Im sorry dhat i causes so much inconvenient fer my frens ard me . Reali felt so guilty about it . I gonna get myself up & prove to people whu once hurt me bfore that im gonna do better than anione . Im not gonna cry bcos everything happens . I gonna brush it off with a smile & not a tear in my eyes . Gonna live to the fullest ! Fcuk off Guys ! I dont nid it at all . I can be better well off w/o You all . I will find someone whu will reali treats me well & love me with his heart derh . Jiayous Rinnie ! I gonna fly as high as i could (:
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
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Finally , my mood stable down lerh . Yst night , TPY suddenly rains & i went downstair , just to stands in the rain . I want myself to wake up . After dhat , went home . Then a rdm people called me at this moment . It was Kill . He heard my voice , he straight away ask , whye You sound so down ? Sleeping or what ? I straight away say , no narh . Nothing much happens . Chatted through the phone with him fer hours & feels much more better . Told him what reali happens last night . I guess only he understands barh . Maybe bcos he is 28 so he could knows what are the so called adult thinking about barh . But just one word to say , it's childish . Had a nice chat with him . Kinda miss him bcos so long nvr meet him lerh . Gonna get to meet him up somedays (:
Finally straightened my thoughts & i swear i wont be dhat foolish AGAIN ! I wont let anione hurts me again . I shall be the one doing so fer now . Thanks Darling fer cutting the 惊世骇俗丑不拉叽香菇头 fer me . I know you will cut this hairstyle just to make me smile . I promise i will (: Im awaiting fer this Saturday to arrived soon . Bcos i cant wait to see Your hairstyle . HAHAHAHA! Thanks Darling too , fer the morning call everyday . Just to make sure im not late fer work . Thanks fer being there fer me through my bad tymes . You're with me always , support nvr fails to come from You . I will keep everything deep down my heart .
Shall blog later bcos gonna have my dinner soon (:
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
19 January 2010 Y
Thanks arh . Seriously thanks lehs . Once let me feels i could start my lyfe afresh with derh guy , turns out to be such a bastard until i dont even noe whu he is . Forever love ? -'- Not gonna believe in this craps ani longer . I hope You do rmb what you reali did today & karma will gets You sooner or later . Im not gonna be that nice animore . Im gonna be as bastard as possible . & i can says , You are the caused of it . I can be berri nice but not to the limit of this . You can get Your ways now . but i believe it wont be long . Im just fcuking angry at myself . Why am i so stupid once after once . I got the lessons & i just simply wont learn from it . Just carry on hurting myself lyke its meant to be . Fcuking guys , listen up ! Im not gonna be as faithful as now . Im gonna be as bastard as possible from now onwards . Dont expect me to be nice . I wont . Forever i wont ! Treat me as a clown & fool ard , You seems happie to do so eh . Sooner or later , it will be your turn . Be friends ? -'- You're not qualified to be my friend . I dont wished to have a friend with full of lies . Dont spoil my lyfe . You aint worth a single tear of mine . Bcos You simply dont understand the meaning of lurfe . Fcuk off far away from my lyfe . You cant open Your heart widely ? Lols ! What a joke ? Then now got a new GurlF ? HAHAHAH! Im impressed by it .
Then i should says , im just using You to forget Lewis . Bcos from the past till now , he had nvr leave my heart bfore . Last tyme , i thought You could replaced him in my heart . But i can tell You so , You're not fit to be . Forever You cant . Wanna plae until so bastard right ? I can play with You . Just dhat You doesnt worth to let me waste my tyme on . I gonna be smart from now onwards & i will nvr let myself get hurt ANIMORE ! Im selfish , so ? Did anione care about how i fcuking feels bfore ? Sorry , i couldnt take this kind of joke . Just let me off & fcuk far off my lyfe !
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
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Today almost late fer work x.x Cabb-ed to work as usual . Today while having my breakfast at coffee shop , the take order derh auntie jitao shout : PaoPaoCha MeiNu , here got 1 guy wanna know You . I jitao so stunned & shy lehs . My head goes lower & lower bcos all people looking at me sial . Woah ~ Damn paiseh lehs . That guy is a 2os working guy . He came over my table & sitted down , starts talking to me . Ask fer my number but i rejected . Then the auntie overheard our conversation then jitao shoot me . This guy from Jurong everyday come down just wanna take number from you lehs . So sincere , whye dont give ? I was lyke . Okie , give hotmail barh . I will feels better this way . Gave him my hotmail dhen bid goodbye , i went back my shop . As usual , Robin came my shop & accompanies me again till i knock off . YX came down too . He accompanies me fer dinner dhen cabb-ed home tgt . Reached home & here i goes , i feels tired x.x Feels lyke slping . Zzzz ! Today my fren's husband sms me , ask me out fer a chill . I was feeling so weird so i rejected . He asked whye . I just said its not berri convenient fer us to meet although he & my fren has divorce . Fer what meet me x.x I dont see the point of meeting . Zzzz ! I dont want ani misunderstanding to be created nor ani stuff to happen . I dont want ani interruption in my lyfe . I dont want ani disturbance . Oh please x.x I onli can say im sorry eh .
Lyfe is just so weird eh . I just feels i betrayed the lurfe fer him uh . I thought i could start afresh w/o him . But eventually i cant . I even thought of giving up on him & stop all those waitings fer him . I just felt i betrayed him . Zzzz ! God damn me . Whatever lerh narh . Nothing can be explained fer this . No exucses fer this too . I believes tmr will be a better day fer me (: Same goes to Larry & FenFen ! Jiayous Peeps !
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
18 January 2010 Y
Omg , i slept fer full 26h last night . People thought i mia sial . Thanks & appreciated people whu are so worried for me when they didnt sees me online & cant contact me through my phone . Im alright . Im just sleeping at home fer the whole day . They told me they are so worried fer me when i didnt pick up my calls & online . Im sorry fer the worried but im reali fine . Dont know whye im so tired fer the whole day . I slept & slept till last night 8.oo . Full 26h sleep . Let me talk about my Saturday night barh .
Saturday
Larry & YX came over my shop & look fer me till 5 . Then accompanies me back to my home & i prepared myself . After dhat my brother reaches home , accompanies us fer dinner . My brother bought a LG LCD Plasma TV 42 inches -.- ! That's too big . I see lerh , eyes oso blur x.x We went fer our stemaboat dinner dhen my brother cabb-ed & alight us at Kallang Train station dhen we continue our journey to Cineleisure . Meet FenFen they all there but she cracked a joke which i dont think it was a joke . Maybe You should try put urself into our shoes & think barh . We rushed there just not to let You all wait fer us , Yet in the end told us You're not coming lerh . What a joke eh . Whatever it is , im not angry or what . Just feels quite funny about it . After dhat , we cabb-ed back to 44 . Saw so many familar faces there . Wanted to go lan but eventually got no com fer us already , so we went singing again . Sing until so havoc bcos all no voice lerh . Sing until out of tune but we dont care bcos we are very close frens . We dont even care about our title . Just anihow sing , anihow dance . Damn havoc lehs . Woah Lao . Jitao spoil our image . Lmao ;x After dhat some stuff happens & i doesnt wished to say . I guess onli YX & Larry knows what happen . After dhat thing , have our supper dhen cabb-ed home . Reach home ard 6 plus in the morning & went to bed . Then sleep until today morning 8 . So many people bomb my phone & sms me . Im sorry arh . I sleeping at home . Damn tired . No choice . Hahahahaha!
Today YX , Larry suddenly came my shop again . Haha! Larry says i hint him derh . SINCE WHEN I HINTED YOU ! LOLOLOLS ! So surprise once again to see them in my shop . Thanks arh . After dhat Robin came . Entertain us once again . Hahahahaha! They were lyke luffing until mouth cramp lorh . Thanks fer the accompanies when im working . Bcos im damn bored -.- ! Lmao ;x I guess in my lyfe , there is 2 L's , 1 Y & 1 R that is so impt to me . 1st : 53947 , i gave my heart to him . 2nd : Larry , a darling whu i shared my everything with . 3rd : YX , a guy who knows me dhat well . 4th : Robin , a guy whu entertain me whenever im bored or sad . 4 impt person who Rinn cant live w/o . Without 1 of them , im not completed . Thanks fer being there always guys . I reali appreciate dhat much . No worries frens ... Im alright now . Im just moving on my lyfe right now . & i guess i can do it better (:
Sunday i renovating my room (: Asking Larry & YX over to my place help me paint my wall & gonna buy new wardrobe & computer desk . Still considering wanna change to Tatami bed a not . Gonna paint my wall to black & on the roof gonna paint stars & moon on it . Wondering wanna change my door to sliding door anot. More style marh . Guess gonna place my old samsung TV in my room too . Hope the renovation will be a successful one . Now waiting fer 53947 to reply to the comment he gave . Dont know why he so idiot , go post my old crying pictures he snap shot derh on my wall . x.x Idiot him . Lmao ;x UOYSSIMI (: he posted , where am i ? I dont dare to reply i hope im in your heart -.- ! Timid Rinn . Zzz !
Monday, January 18, 2010
16 January 2010 Y
Boos ~ Yst reach home at ard 43oam . Reach home , remove my make up jiu falls on my bed & went to sleep lerh . Yst , Larry & FenFen came TPY & look fer me . Went to get our Koi Cafe & have our dinner dhen went to 44 . Went singing after dhat bcos im kinda sad . Sing until berri havoc sial . But sing till 1 song , i realise my tears was on my cheek . Didnt reali cries out loud but somehow shed some tears fer him . After hours of singing , went to have our supper . I guess im the only one dhat feels the hunger in me . Bcos im the onli one eating . After a while , FenFen leave first dhen left me & Larry . Told Larry about my past tyme . About me & Ben . Sorrows starts to fills my heart . Somehow i felt the pain is there . The pain dhat cant use words to describe . Told Larry dhat he's the only regret i have in my entire 2o yrs journey . I've let him down no matter how mani chances he gaves me . He's too generous . No one will do so but onli Him . Recalled back , i rmbs dhat i told myself i would buried the 2 years memories deep down a corner in my heart . Sometymes i shall let the memories flashed back in my mind & somehow i smiled . After telling Larry all those past stuff , cabb-ed back home & as usual , give him a ride too .
Today saw Robin when im having my breakfast . He accompanies me throughout my whole breakfast time. Haha! After dhat he went home dhen ard 2 plus came down & accompanies me again when im working . After dhat YX came & look fer me too . Follow by Larry . Lols ! Currently Larry & YX is at my house , waiting fer me to prepare & we shall have our steamboat dinner & maybe a K Box session . Now both behind my back , shout & shout . I dont want steamboat ~ I dont want K Box ~ Wahahahha! No choice . Im the boss (: Lmao ;x Waiting fer FenFen to knock off dhen come look fer us . Saturday night is a Heart To Heart talk night . We shall have a lovely night . OMG ! Robin saw my handphone derh wallpaper . God damn x.x Keep tease me . Keep say woah woah ~ I was lyke so paiseh lehs . Zzz ! But nvrm . Im happie to put dhat wallpaper (: Once again , i will be alright . No need worry about me . He gave this r/s up , i got no comments bcos its his decision . Shall put everything behind my back & move on . (: Here we Goes ~ Buhbye !
Saturday, January 16, 2010
15 January 2010 Y
Thanks people fer all the concerns . Thanks & appreciated . Im alright & i will be fine . Although feeling not dhat good but somehow i nid to be strong isnt it ? This is lyfe & i understands it . Just wanna be alone fer a moment . I says : it doesnt matters with a heart breaking down into pieces . Pick all the pieces of it up fer me , if nort i wont be alive . Stupid is what i can describe the current me . Nothing else . Just stupid . Going out alone fer some peace & maybe have a loud cry bcos at home got people . Dont reali wished dhat they could hear me cries . Guess nid to find a hiding place to cry out loud . One tyme fer all . Just Jiayous barh . Under the stars , i couldnt sees the stars shining . On the road , i couldnt see any signs . Just too pathetic .
Friday, January 15, 2010
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After Sunrise & there should be a Sunset . Sun wont forever rise fer You . This is what i have learnt . If ever this was a joke to You , eventually at the end of the joke , im just a clown . No more tries , just no more . This shows You were just the same as the others . Not much feeling into it , just felt its such a disappointment . Bcos i reali tried it . Uses all the courage 53947 gave me to have a new start but eventually i failed . Lols . Somehow feels dhat it was lyke a trading more lyke a r/s . You can put a fullstop anityme , anywhere . No signs nor warning . Had a great fall & now trying to make myself stands up once again . Quite lucky dhat this fall wasnt as serious as the fall dhat tyme . Give me some tyme to figure it out barh . I dont wanna understand nor do i wished to know . No excuse nor explanation , i can say to this barh . Just mark it as a memories fer me . Wished You all the best & i believe You can do it . Maybe everything is just a joke . Jiayous ! Bid Goodbye (:
Thanks 53947 fer the entertainment last night You gave . Im reali in a bad mood last night but i see the comments You gave i was lyke smiling in my heart . I guess FenFen & Larry knows whye im feeling this way . Although You always pops out at a rdm timing fer me but i guess its enuff lerh barh . More dan enuff i guess . & You told me its a Forever dhat You're my companion being through with me regardless to bad or good tyme . Although this sentence may seems nothing to everyone but You know it means alot to me . Im reali very tired lerh . Tired as in my heart , my brain , my mentally . I reali nid a rest . If there is nothing impt , please leave me alone . Excluded people is 53947 , Larry & Fennie . Waiting fer Robin derh call bcos he says he wanna bring me go gai gai . Guess he gonna come & fetch me at my place dhen maybe KLP ? Im missing the tymes i had with SA1 guys . Bring me back to my past . I will be happier .
Friday, January 15, 2010
14 January 2010 Y
I've got an answer already .
Thursday, January 14, 2010
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Empty myself , empty my thoughts . Thought i saw the rainbow Yet rainbow vanishes & storm appears . 1 after 1 . Damn it x.x Flowing around in the air . Lost of Directions , Lost of Thoughts . I shall brush off with a smile .
Thursday, January 14, 2010
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Today kinda boring x.x Just now Robin came over my working place , wait till i knock off dhen go slack a while dhen he drive me back home . Thanks eh . Can sees dhat he's reali putting all his efforts on his work . & i must complaint lerh ! Whye we so long nvr meet out & go KLP T_T ! Lewis keep fishing fishing fishing . HaoHao keep work & accompany GurlF . Liang keep work & Plae game at home . Robin keep chiong work & work still . When will be our outing !!!!
Misses him somehow . Attitude to him today due to my pissed off mood x.x Guess he's angry at me bcos didnt received his sms at all . Zzzz ! Die lerh . I oso dont dare to sms him . How arh x.x im reali a Fcuktard lehs . Now all i can do is to wait fer his sms barh . Dont reali wanna go disturb him . Sigh* Shall blog later . Now kinda sians . -.- !
Thursday, January 14, 2010
13 January 2010 Y
Home Sweet Home . Thanks bi fer the counselling just now . I know what i should do lerh . Or maybe what You suggest just now could works . I hope i didnt spoil Your mood eventually although You said You tricked me today & cause some happiness to You . I dont mind being tricked by You every single day just fer an exchange of a smile on Your face . I dont mind being a clown . Bcos your smile wins over anithing . This isnt sweetalk . This is words comes from the bottom of my heart . I know You're very tired after work . I dont mind didnt get to catch a movie or meet You . I just want You to have enough sleep . This matters more dan anithing . I dont know whye , no matters what happen , You alway carries a smile on your face & this somehow makes me feels good even im not in dhat mood . Thanks fer creating so much laughter & fun in my lyfe . You said im inside part of your heart but i guess You already totally enters my lyfe & is part of me . Maybe future to us is so blur now . But i just know fer this very moment right now , im very happie i have a You . Even if 1 day we reali goes on our own way , i wont feels sad nor regrets . Bcos You once brighten up my lyfe & brings in happiness to my lyfe . Had a nice dinner with You just now at PS although i know You dont reali lyke the food but You just kept on stuffing food inside Your mouth . Xin Ku ni lerh . Have a nice talk at Youth Park after dhat & laughter surrounded us as usual . Although im troubled by some stuff but he still can managed to make me laugh . Impress of it . From now onwards , i wont show my sadness to You again . Bcos i know dhat although You're kinda bad mood bcos of Your work stuff but You're still able to crack jokes & shows the smile on your face . So i must be the same as You . Dont say i copy You ! I just dont wished dhat my mood somehow spoil our dating . Lyke You said , Dating should be at a romantic place , speaking softly or maybe whispering to each other . I should understand this . I can say although You're not my top priority in my heart but somehow You stands a impt position in my heart . I gonna make everyday a lovely day . No matter how hard the day i had spent , the presence of yours somehow makes my day meaningful . I shall cherish what i have fer now & it's You . Thanks bi fer the meal although You said in the noon dhat dinner is on me but eventually You paid fer it & even make a fool out of me . But it's okie bcos it created some happiness fer You . Bi , i apologise fer the bad manner by throwing the receipt on You . Reali sorry about dhat . I doesnt means anithing . I dont know You're angry at that anot , i just knew im very wrong to do so . If 1 day , You feels dhat we couldnt continue this r/s , just let me know . You know my style . I will put a fullstop & end it . We shall work harder fer it ♥ Wondering he reaches home already anot . Hope he do drive carefully . Bcos he's tired so im afraid he cant concentrate on driving . I will be waiting fer Your message (:
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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Okie , back home to post about stuff happens yst . Yst , inside his car on the way back to my place . He held my hand while he's driving & out of a sudden i felt everything was so real . Then i realise it wasnt a dream animore . Its damn real . Omq ! I haven learn the DaLang Dance lehs . Woah ~ Jialat lerh . Today ard 11 plus , he called me & talk to me while we were working . Heard his voice & suddenly feels im so fortunate now . Monday , Wednesday , Friday he is the boss . Tuesday , Thursday & Saturday im the boss . Haha! Guess you all dont understand what i means . Lols ! 645 he coming over to my place & fetch me dhen we going to catch a movie . Guess we're watching Alvin & The Chipmonks at Suntec barh . Waiting waiting waiting ~
FenFen , sooner or later You will get to meet The Right One i believe . As long as You believe there is , there will be . Just a matter of tyme . I cant ensure me & Andy will last but at least we believe in it . That's the common thing i guess we both have the same barh . Fate let me meets my Him & i guess Fate will let You meets your Him soon too (: Jiayous . Although im attached now but im nort gonna changed anithing kaes . Do confide in me whenever You needs me . I will be there fer You still . Same goes to frens ard me . Blissful or not , nobody knows . If its a lasting one , its blissful but what if its not ? It will only be a tragic . Last of all , FenFen , You will see the beautiful rainbow after the rain derh . Trust me . Lurfes You♥ Shall blog later when im home (:
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
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OMG OMG OMG ! I SUCCEEDED ! YEAH ! Reali didnt expect everything could turn out this way . Thanks people fer those support & advices . I reali do hope i could find my happiness in the r/s . Jiayous !
We got no promises but we got a heart dhat has us in it . I will try my very best . I will put in all my efforts in this r/s . I wont let little efforts goes into the drain . I know You wont too . Just now he drove me to East Coast & after a long discussion , we decided to be tgt . Although he's afraid dhat he will hurt me but i dont mind . Bcos the lurfe could overcome every hurt he gave in the future . Both of us do have feelings fer each other but we're just afraid . But after long discussion , we overcome every fear just to be tgt . We do hope its a lasting one . I dont know what the future is lyke , i will just cherish this & every moments we had . From now onwards , we will put in every efforts . We want this to last & we reali do . The gentle touch of yours , the warmth hug You gave , The funs dhat we have today i will nvr forgets . He told me if we makes the other one angry , we shall dance DaLang Dance at the place we were at . I shall learn the dance asap . Have a lot of little funs there . Playing scissors paper stone , five ten , wu gui wu gui tiao & hai dai . 2 v 2 . Zzz ! Bi , i will win You all the finger games 1 day ! I will undergo secret training derh . I reali hopes to see Your smile everyday . I will do my part as i said just now . I will try to understand you as much as possible & as soon as possible . I will figure everything of Yours out clearly . Too much fun today & im surrounded by happiness , so quite blur now . Shall blog tmr . Nights peeps & Last of all , Nights Bi ♥
Andy & Kerin
12.o1.2o1o♥
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
12 January 2010 Y
Nervous , Afraid , Excited , Lost is the feelings i have now . Nervous bcos im meeting him in 2 and a half hour tyme . Afraid bcos i dont know how to face him & the situation later . Excited bcos i dont know what he gonna say to me later . Lost bcos i dont know what i should do next . He told me he gonna meet me tonight & tells me what he's thinking about . I dont know its a good or bad thing . But eventually i had already decided to face it . No matter good or bad , i gonna handle it very well . BFF ard me giving me advices & their support . Thanks & appreciated . But i just hope i wont disappoint You all . I reali hope everything will be fine later . God Bless Rinnie .
Today just told FenFen dhat i wished to settle down with him . I reali wished to . But im afraid . Im afraid of the heart broken once again . Im afraid dhat history will repeats once again . Im afraid i would hurt him accidentally w/o me realising it . I know he's the guy fer me . I dont know whye he is . I just know the feelings starts to develop even more after days . This isnt a crush . I reali hopes we could fulfil the promises we made . He says whoever makes the other partner angry , shall dance DaLang Dance no matter where we are . I promised him & i will learn the dance derh . I reali hope everything wasnt a dream . If its a dream , i dont wished to wake up . Please dont wake me up from this dream . Just let me sleep soundly w/o any disturbance . Maybe its a bit exaggerate dhat i onli knew him fer a few days yet the feeling is there . Bcos i do believes in 1st sight lurfe . I believes it's Fate . Example : This guy waited fer this gurl fer years but gets back nth eventually . But another guy just knew the same gurl fer mths & the feelings is there . This is destined derh , isnt it ? I believes the feeling is right . No one will knows how future will be lyke . So right now , i gonna cherish every little things i have . Even if , im gonna be hurt entirely , i dont mind . At least i did something fer myself , just not to regret .
Now at home , waiting fer the tyme to arrived . Mixed feelings but i will calm myself down derh . Shall wait fer my good/bad news later . This is the last tyme im trying it . If failed , i guess there wont be a second tyme fer me . Buddha Bless Rinnie (:
♥ o9.o1.2o1o - The Day i knew Him.
♥ 1o.o1.2o1o - The Day i met Him.
Jiayous Rinnie !
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
11 January 2010 Y
OMG OMG OMG ! I had A BIG SURPRISE TODAY from Larry & YX ! Thanks so much . They came my working place & look fer me till i knock off . You know something ? I didnt expect dhat they will come look fer me lehs . Reali lorh . When i saw them , i was lyke OMG ! Whye you all will come ? I was so shock & stunned . Still rmb , yst night bfore i sleep , i was on the phone with FenFen . Then she ask me , tmr no people go accompany me meh ? I was lyke , no ? Bcos all starts school lerh . Omg ! I didnt expect dhat they will come today & it reali surprise me dhat much . Seriously im berri touched okie . Bcos after school lerh , i guess they are very tired lerh . Yet they still came over to my place & look fer me lehs . I lurfe dem so much ♥ We gonna be BFF fer lyfe okie (: After i knock off , actually meet him to catch a movie derh but he got some stuff to do so didnt get to meet him today. So went dinner with Larry & YX . So good of them ! Bcos we have our dinner at my house downstair . After dinner , i can straight away go home but they so pathetic . Still nid to take a long journey home . Thanks so much ♥ Remember Sat hurr ! Our outing again (: Im awaiting fer it . So excited . Lmao ;x
Today didnt get to meet him. I guess he's afraid of me lerh barh . Lols ! I guess this wont work out lerh barh . I shouldnt pin any hopes on it . I guess let natural take its own course barh . If everything doesnt seems fine to him , we shall stop everything barh . Im alright with it . Just kinda wasted barh . Bcos i reali wanna settle down right now with a guy i lyke . But i guess this takes tyme barh . I just wanna be myself . I dont wanna be a fake me animore . I dont wanna forge a smile on my face when im sad . I wanna cry out loud when im sad . I wanna laugh out loud lyke how people do . I hope this tyme , everything can work out . I dont mind anithing . Bcos no one is perfect . I just want the feeling to be right . But if he thinks , we cant dhen i shall put a fullstop here . Maybe im the one dhat had no confident barh . He's very nice to me . He gives me a nervous feeling when i was about to meet him . This kind of feeling ish what i nvr had bfore derh . I dont know why im so nervous . After meeting him last night , i reaches home dhen FenFen calls me & we chatted on the phone . I keep nag at her the same thing fer 8oo+ tymes i guess . Keep repeating the same stuff , Omg ! die lerh narh . My performance just now so bad lehs . How arh -.- ! Keep nag & nag . Sigh* I guess i failed this tyme once again . Never mind . Falls too much tyme lerh , already numb-ed about the pain lerh . Doesnt even feels dhat the pain exist . Will meet The Right One soon i guess . Just feels dhat guys is so random . Sometyme treats people so hot until my heart gonna be melted by it . Sometyme too cold until i nid to look fer protection to warmth my heart . Reali dont understand guys dhat much . But maybe is they didnt reali put in the effort to understand me more barh . Gonna watch HPTX Epi.11 soon . If there's anithing happen again , i shall blog tonight again (: Last of all ,
Thanks Larry & YX again fer the surprise ♥
Monday, January 11, 2010
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Omg ! He came over my house here to meet me just now . This is the 1st tyme , i felt so nervous & im shivering ! I dont know whye . Every tyme meet guys , im havoc more than nervous . But why just now im so nervous ? I guess my performance is nort dhat good . Die lerh T_T I went downstair , looking fer him . Saw him & while walking towards him , my heart pump more & more fast . Sitted down with a big distance with him . Kept quiet fer a while then he asked me , am i rdy to talk . I was lyke , omq ! Tried to calm myself down asap . Have a nice chat with him . After dhat went home & get him the piggy i caught last night . Bcos is i 1st tyme catch dao derh , quite memorable to me so i decided to give it to him . He keep torture him lehs . Guess my piggy will have a hard lyfe starts from today . He went over his car & put it in & pass me another toy but idk what it is . Lols ! Quite ugly but i lyke it alot bcos is a gift from him . So called exchange gifts . Lmao ;x Agreed to meet tmr fer a movie . Whoever late shall pay fer the meal (: Hope tmr will be a wonderful day .
I guess looks or whatever stuff doesnt matters barh . What matters is heart . If want me to say qualify or nort . I shall say You're qualify . I shall cherish You from now onwards . I do hope everything can work out & i will try my best to get over everything . New start fer me & im working very hard ! Jiayous ! Awaiting fer tmr to arrive asap (: Nights Peeps .
Monday, January 11, 2010
10 January 2010 Y
My blog FINALLY DONE LERH ! Omq x.x ! Spend 2 days to figure out what had reali happens . Zzz ! Relink me Please !
Yst , went down 32 with FenFen dhen meets Larry at there too . Quite angry due to some people's performance . Its a Saturday & the kids should be at 32 Yst . Yet ? Totally spoil my mood last night . After dhat went over to Little Vietnam as we promised a few days back . Had a wonderful dinner there . After dhat Sy & YX jiu come lerh . After dinner , went into Grandlink & catch bear . Omq ! Its my 1st tyme , i used my own $$ to catch dao a piggy ! So happie dhat i caught one after spending so much $$ on it . After dhat saw Sky they all . Then heard from them dhat Ah bao got some conflicts with his kids . Then eventually they settle it after a fight -.- ! Yarh , its VERY CHILDISH . But what to do ? They are grown ups with no brain or maybe can say their age grows but their mind doesnt . After dhat FenFen went home lerh dhen me , Larry , SY & YX went over to Little Vietnam again bcos im craving fer the Lipton Milktea . Omq ! It just tastes so nice (: Then same as usual , Saturday night is a Heart to Heart Talk night . Talk about some stuff dhen headed home . Cabb-ed with YX & gives Larry a ride too as usual . Reaches home , tried to figure out what happens to my blog & finally found a way to deal with it . But too tired to edit yst , so did it today . Ysterdae went to YX Secondary school fer his Parental Support Day . Act-ed as his sister but i guess people tot im his younger sister barh . I doesnt even looks lyke 2o -.- But im 2o . Zzz ! Still got people in his school says whye ur sister shorter than You . I was lyke , YX ish 18o+ . If i taller dan him dhen looks lyke his elder sister then im quite scary lerh . Expect me to be taller than him mehs -.- !
Currently , in pending progress with a guy named Andy . Hopes everything can works out & i could open up my hearts to let him enters in . Maybe meeting him later or maybe tmr . Coughing & coughing as usual . Hope will recovers soon . Awaiting fer next saturday to arrive soon (: Shall blog later if i got meets him !
Sunday, January 10, 2010
09 January 2010 Y
Omq! New blog !!!! Make me so damn pissed off . -'- Blogger . My past blog corrupted lerh . So nid to create new one . Sorry guys fer the trouble to re-link me again . Spend the whole day remaking this stupid blog . God damn x.x So tired . Blog again tmr . Relink oh ! Thladie-rinnie.bs.com . Thanks & Appreciated !
Saturday, January 09, 2010
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