25 February 2010 Y
This couple of days , knock off lerh jiu went down 32 find peeps . Reali had lots of fun at there whenever they are around . They never fails to make me smile . But afterall i knew i couldnt laugh lyke how i used to be . Today saw a mother trying to make her daughter smile & stop throwing tantrum . When i saw that scene , somehow my heart feels that sour & my heart is aching . Tears start to drip to my cheek . Somehow , in my whole entire lyfe , what im lacking of is just the lurfe of my mother . The feeling is damn fcuk up derh . But i control my emotions & try to be back to myself . Im just trying to convince myself & face the fact dhat i could nvr had this kind lurfe fer the rest of my lyfe .
Through tyme passes , i admit i miss him still . But not as much as before maybe because i know missing him is just hurting myself & maybe others . I cant deny the fact dhat the lurfe fer You never goes away . I gonna put everything that concern about You down . The gentle touch of yours on my face that day , i will nvr forget . Its a past tense lerh . I must be happie fer my present tense & prepare myself for my future tense . Im gonna walk out the first step on the right direction . I dont know whether i can do so but i will try . Walk out of the world of yours & walk back into mine . I will stop thinking of You & buried the lurfe i had for You . Boy , after such a long journey , finally i letting go of You & letting off myself . I know You wouldnt bother nor care because You doesnt even knows how i feel for You . Its destined i believe & i resign to fate . We wasnt meant to be . So im not gonna force it to be in my way . Jiayous Rinnie (:
Im Sorry , i know i have been hurting You all along . But i doesnt means anithing . I know You're giving in to me always . I need tyme to heal myself & i know You will always be here for me . Even if You wasnt here , i can understand why . I dont wanna make use of You to replace him nor mend my heart . That is why i always didnt give You a definite answer . I dont expect that You will wait for me & i hope You wont too . Because it's just wasting the precious tyme of Yours . Afterall , all i need is tyme . I cant promise that i could be the cause of Your smile but if i could be the cause in ani ways , i will do so (: Thanks for being the one with me whenever im down . Please be as happie as possible , because Your frowning looks so ugly ! Laugh out loud ! ;x
Okie , tyme to sleep lerh . Nights peeps (:
Thursday, February 25, 2010
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