11 February 2010 Y
Short summary on what i had did yst & today .
Yesterday was at home for the whole day . Intend to go down 32 & Jason keep bomb my phone , asking me to go down . Get so pissed off by my itouch bcos im so new to it . Busy handling with my itouch so didnt went down . Korkor came back home & he uses only 5 mins & get everything right on the path . Zzz ! This can shows how stupid i am to electronic device . Then bfore im off to bed , chatt-ed on the phone with Ling . After dhat off to bed lerh . Had a nightmare while im sleeping & i woke up , im damn afraid . Look at the clock & its nearly 5am . My mind just cant stop thinking about the nightmare i had & i cant get back to sleep . I got no one to turn to at that moment & i just felt so helpless . That is when i reali feels im just alone & that lonely . Tears started dripping & i just wipe it off & tried to get back to sleep . Suddenly heard my brother coughing sound & it reali peace out my mind . I felt so relieved bcos i knew someone is around . Finally , i can peacefully get back to sleep .
Today , after work went to TPY to buy my itouch protection cover . Today i did everything all by myself . I went to buy the protection cover myself , i took bus alone to 32 . I guess i want back my lonely lyfe lerh barh . Lonliness is frightening but what frighten me the most is when i have a lot of people around me but i still felt that im just alone . The feeling sarky TTM . Whatever it is , lyfe goes on still . Alone or not alone , i just have to lead on no matter what .
My mind never fails to think about You . Just that i dont wanna admit this is the fact . Im running away , i knew it . Im afraid of silent . Silent Night kills me . No one knows how it feels . Im just terribly stuck here . Get me out of this shyt . I dont wanna lurfe animore . Im so afraid of it . Denying everything just make me realise how much i wanted You . But i knew i cant . Bcos im so sarky at lurfe . I will make everything into a nothing .
Hope Nightmare wont come again today . Off to bed lerh , Nights Peeps (:
Thursday, February 11, 2010